Here we are again.

So Plasma Match didn't happen....apparently I have none of the DNA required for the trial, which I guess as my friend says, has got to be a good thing. So immunotherapy is also out of the question for now. As the risk of my body destroying itself is too high apparently....GREAT! So chemo it is...... Reluctantly I will be taking an oral chemical drench for 3 weeks then a week off for as long as possible. I am hoping that a miracle happens so that I can come of it be be drenched in apple juice or something instead that will rid me of this disease. It has made me feel low and yes it is a kick in the.....teeth. I now need to focus on my daughter, and memories and passing on as much as I can to her of my guidance for later years. Choosing secondary school has become a cold pragmatic decision. Of course the one nearest her father has an outstanding OFSTED report and the reality is, it is near her father and we all know what that is doing in my head. It is reality check city round here. I have to face it, as a family we have to face it, we have to be practical. I am not going to stop fighting though, that is the last thing on my list to do......so what is the most sensible thing for a girl in my position to do?.......go on a date of course!!