The Tree of Life

I am clinging on to my hippy within, there has always been a hessian wearing bare footed mama in my soul. She spread her wings when I travelled the world in the 90's, and gained momentum in India. It brings serenity and hope to my life, rooting myself in nature. My little girl was a miracle baby and was born after pouring red wine on an oak tree at midnight, my poor man at the time had to come too ( don't ask, and don't scream at the waste of wine) through tying a piece of cotton in a fertility temple in India, through carrying mistletoe in my pocket and lighting various candles and bathing in a bath of oak leaves.....mostly I think the science behind IVF nailed it but, the hippy stuff kept me busy, hoping and wishing, wishing very hard while holding onto a tree. Now I am wishing for my life to continue so that I can be here for my beautiful girl. So the earth mama comes again to the fore.......

I have every colour candle of the rainbow quite literally....every essential oil (frankinsense is good for cancer apparently), ribbon aplenty ...I am getting a tattoo for protection and healing over my hysterectomy scar a personalised one via a buddhist monk (oh yea baby)....I have a friend of a friend who can do it for me, just need to find some gold ink (hhhmmmm need to make sure this is ok with CT scans...) and I have my new tree of life necklace...(and various crystals).....

All of this sounds crazy, but it gives me hope in nature by connecting with the magic of it. I am making every second count in the run up to March 1st, the most of my hair, the most of feeling good breathing deeply, walking through fields, watching the river flow....I feel so good due to all the concious drinking of Pom juice (again good for cancer apparently) and of course the eating of propar stuff, infact I almost feel elated with the beauty of everything and how precious it is, particularly my daughter.  I just ask the universe to grant me the biggest wish of my life, I promise to look after the planet and do what I can...please universe...please..... let me see my girl grow into a woman  ...om shanti people...hug anyone?