Still waiting....

So, it has been a while since my last post. we have taken in our new family member, our new puppy, she is a cross between a chihuahua and a terrier, she is teeny, but already the centre of our world. Suddenly i am reminded of what it is to have small needy being, a new baby to attend to. The distraction occupies my mind and distracts me from the continuing anxiety over what is going to be happening to me regarding the proposed liver treatment. Whether i will have surgery up at Kings in London or whether i just get zapped in Maidstone....it is looking likely that the surgery is on the cards. It seems everyone involved in my case has decided to go on holiday for a week and so everything has been set back, but two meetings have taken place at kings and the outcome should be known to me by monday next week . Meanwhile I am necking turmeric and dandelion root as if it were an olympic sport hoping that I am containing the cancer or at least doing something to stop it doing anything scary.

The cuddles with our new little arrival have been most welcome as I have found myself feeling uncertain again about the future, and I have to confess i am scared about having major surgery on my liver, so close to my ahortic artery. Having the cancer so close to a main artery is also scary as it would be a super highway  to the rest of my body and therefore needs to be removed pretty soon if possible in my opinion.....mind you what do I know really? i have to trust that i am in the right hands and something will happen for the right reasons and I need to keep a cool head and get on with it. I am going to hospice in the weald tomorrow, for reiki, I told them i have a puppy and may have to leave her in the car, they told me to mention it to the lady I am seeing as they may well invite her in for a cuddle, as they love having dogs in the hospice. an amazing place, so kind to think of that so that I dont have to cancel my appoint, if our pup can bring some enjoyment to others that would make me feel so happy and less guilty for leaving her and for indulging in reiki for me..... Just want the dates of the op, feel like i am treading water.....major op....perfect time to get a puppy eh????

Creative Expression Workshop

I have just come back from a 'creative workshop' at Hospice in the Weald. I have to confess I was abit apprehensive as I had read in some forums that some people felt art workshops were abit patronising and involved sticking on pom poms and the like.  I was pleasantly surprised. There were 3 of us of varying degrees of wellness.  We all had a great time, we didn't want to leave.....Experimentation was had by all and none of us had similar interpretations of the art we were copying. We used oils and water colour.

Every other Thursday I have reiki there too, in a beautiful room that over looks the well kept garden.
it is my spiritual fix, and helps me to calm right down and enjoy the warm therapeutic process while i spiritually geek out with a similar minded lady.

I am going to take my daughter to a creative session on saturday morning, the atmosphere there is wonderfully homely and welcoming and while everyone of us knows what a hospice is there is not a maudlin looking person there.

Here are my pics ( we had an hour )from the session today watercolour tree and Poppy interpretation of Georgia O Keefes Poppy, not finished (bit of a coincidence we were using a poppy)....go there....it's a great place well deserved of the charitable funding that so many people work hard to raise as well as the countless volunteers on hand in the building.
love it HITW.